Cell update pt two

Must be nice to have some one to lay next to. Im banished to the couch cause my roommate has his girl over. Sorry just a little envy peeking out there.

Cell phone post

Ok this is really just a test to see if i can post from my cell

Another early morning gem

I ask the creator to

Have mercy...
On this man who uses his faults and blessings
as weapons against those who would do him harm.
On this man who has chosen to grown roses
in the cracks placed upon his heart.

Have mercy...
On this man who has had his fill of
sorrow, but has been drowning in it since his youth.
On this man who has grown envious of those who
take this journey for granted and squander the gifts given them.

Have mercy.....
On this man who has yet to find a companion
to walk his path with him,
to share in his dreams and desires,
to capture his
heart.

Have mercy.....
On this man who is unsure of the path he walks,
but walks it anyway.
On this man who is willing to endure the slings,
arrows,
lacerations,
set backs,
and pit falls
just to become like steal fresh from the crucible of life
Leadless.

In all the pain, love, life, and my spirit I ask
Have mercy.

Happiness, but at what cost

I didn’t think that I would be posting today because our net connection went down, but here I am. So Ms H. and I haven’t talked in the past few days, no I know what your thinking I haven’t don’t anything wrong to screw this up, cross ya fingers. So today at work I finally got a hold of her at her job, and I found out why we haven’t been talking. It turns out that her mom while looking for a picture of something or the other had found one of myself on her phone, don’t you just love tech. So her mother being mountain people as I love to call the red neck hicks that live up here goes into complete bigot mode. I have never been so upset as I am right now, I mean I knew there were and still are people like this living today but to have it affect my life when I have something that brings me some level of happiness is down right cruel. Then she tells me that her brother in law say that “ you can forget being apart of this family if you bring a black guy home” or something that that affect I probably should have paraphrased instead of quoting , but fuck it. This whole thing has me upset more than pissed, I mean how can a mother treat her daughter with such……hell I have no Idea right now with what but she’s doing it and it’s pissin me off now that I know about it. The sad part is I know that there is nothing that I can do about it. You can’t change someone’s mindset this late in the game of life, and I know that H doesn’t feel the way these two members of her family does, but how can this become anything more than just two people who occasionally get together when on side of the familial equation wont under any circumstances want to see the other? Would she be willing to remove herself from having contact with people she's known all her life, just for someone shes just met? Uhhh, I hate people, this whole thing would be a lot easier if I could just go and beat some sense into them but that doesn’t work, anywhoo ill keep ya posted to any further developments.

Wolf

P.S And that three am thing applies to everything ;)

I should never be up at three in the morning writting

You came into my life like a whirlwind,

All sound and fury signifying

EVERYTHING!

But now your gone and I find myself a

Storm chaser.

Running towards rain clouds seeking that elemental fix

I crave.

It wasn’t supposed to be like this

The waiting for the next electric jolt,

So my heart could beat again.

The next gust of wind,

So I can breathe again.

The next thunderous clap,

So I can hear you call my name again.

So now I’m a storm chaser getting no closer to being wrapped up in the hurricane like down pour of some one I now long for.

So now I’m a storm chaser, and I don’t know how much more of this I can indoor.