Toiletbowl full of soul

What do you do when people unexpectedly shit on your soul?
Now, really think about that.  These people don’t intentionally do this but the end result of having them in your life for however long is this deep festering wound that has the chance of healing over, but most of the time doesn’t.  We have learned to deal with many small pains in our lives and this just gets thrown on to the pile with the rest of them.  We learn to live with un-requited love, deferred dreams, and the whole list of shoulda-couldas.  But what do we honestly do about the people that take our soul and instead of leaving a nice footprint that gives us character and adds to our wisdom they leave dark clouds and thunder storms.
See me I personally can’t forget what these people have done to me, I try to move on I really do, and for some people who have wronged me in my past I have completely moved on, but I still remember.  Why should I forget?  Why should I say hey you get a pass cause I placed my self in a situation where I could be hurt by your nefarious ways, and I should have known better?  I don’t think so.  I know that I should say you know what ya live and you learn, and I do, but I live learn and never forget.  These people shouldn’t be forgiven.  They shouldn’t!  I don’t ask to be forgiven for the things that I’ve done I am pretty damn sure that there are people that just might want my head on a pike.  Truth be told I would love the opportunity to drag these people kicking and screaming into the pits of hell were they belong, but hey the creator said that vengeance will be mine.  On a side note ill probably get corrected on that line, back on topic.  So that kinda takes the whole spirit of vengeance away from me, but I can still enjoy when bad things happen to them.  Again a line that will gain a moral correction, but my morals have been colored by many people and are very different than most.

Wolf

Whats awesome.

Before i get to the post aloow me a lil back story on my self. I belive that every person has two sides to their personality, now most people lean toward one side or another and go on about their lives this way oblivious to this. Now as for me i have at anyone given point in time in my past have tried to suppress one side of myself or another, needles to say it has lead to many hurt feelings on the part of myself and many of my friends. Now since i have grown older i have achieved a nice balance in myself that is still growing day by day.

Ok with that said, You know whats awsome?

Whats awesome is ym new guilty pleasure movie Hostel. It lets every stupid american know that when we go backpacking over in Europe that we should act like lil school children and not be lead around by our respective naughty bits cause it can very well lead to your very grusome deaths.

You know what else is awesome?

Finding out that a person that you hate is curently dateing a very racisit person who is even more close minded than her family, and if it ever 1. got out that her neice has come out of the closet or 2. used to date and sleep with a black man mr. white guy might just have to slap a bitch.

its really the last thing that has me so very happy tonight. Honestly this is me just indulging my mind with all the things that i could do to make this powder kegg of a situation end in many scrathes and scrapes. Now Is this mind set wrong , Yes. Should i do anythng like what im thinking, no. Will i do anything like im thinking, no. But when people who make themselves an enemy of me and mine I enjoy hearing about when they suffer. Again could some veiw that mind set as worng Yeah, but it makes that part of me that is still hurt feel better.

And lastly you know what is awesome?

Whats awesome is that i didnt have to do anything today at work, and i got this happy info today so i had a wonderful day at work.

Wolf

new year

So it's a new year now and as always it's time for a few changes here and there, i think ill update the background of this repository, should be sapository, for the things that go on in my brain. But ill do that when i remmber how to do that. I'm one step closer to having my pc all to myself, so thats kinda nice for me. Well i just wanted to place a very Late Happy New Year on here there will be more things to come later in the year.

wolf